Thursday, May 18, 2006
to get me started
My gut is violently rebelling against me right now. Jesus, I feel like I ate a plate meat that sat out for two weeks. I feel like my lower intestines are trying to eat their way through my higher intestines. My tummy hurts.
I have no idea what I am going to do today. I guess I could get some reading/writing done. I guess.
There is really no purpose of this post. Really, it is only something to kill a few minutes while I wake up a little bit more. Also to take my mind off of my stomach. Gawh, this is not a pleasent experience.
I need one of those....what do you call 'em? Girlfriend. Yeah. That'd be nice.
This train of thought isn't really going anywhere, so I suppose I'll disembark now.
I have no idea what I am going to do today. I guess I could get some reading/writing done. I guess.
There is really no purpose of this post. Really, it is only something to kill a few minutes while I wake up a little bit more. Also to take my mind off of my stomach. Gawh, this is not a pleasent experience.
I need one of those....what do you call 'em? Girlfriend. Yeah. That'd be nice.
This train of thought isn't really going anywhere, so I suppose I'll disembark now.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Clowns and Croissants
It is close to finals, and the summer is so freaking close I can already feel my flesh burning. That would be because of sunburns, or as I like to call them, ass. I got a nice taste of what the summer as in store for me this weekend on that note. I have visions of me sitting on a beach somewhere and little children coming up to me and asking "Why are you wearing a coat?" and I'll say "get outta here ya' lousy kids!" Then they'll run off, never realizing that I'm probably still getting a sunburn under the coat.
I applied for a creative writing class for next semester. I've taken a few already, but I honestly think that I've learned a lot more about creative writing in the last couple of weeks when my professor spent a couple of hours one on one with me going over a story as I revised. Its amazing how people with PhD's can be so insightful.
I wrote a short story yesterday with drug addict clowns, nuns, deformed priests, and absolutely no ninjas. It still needs a lot of work, but I'm kind of proud of it, I like the characters, I like the flow. I'm still not where I'd like to be with my writing, I have a long way to go I think, but I'm getting a little closer. A lot of things still feel kind of forced and a lot of things are probably too subtle for my original meaning to come across. I don't know, I'll get there.
I've been forcing myself to wake up earlier lately, which I have been finding charmingly delightful. I have so much time to get things done before anything has to get done. I'm not rushing around so much. Man, I wish I was doing this all semester, that would have been nice. Instead, like with everything in my life, I start when its all but too late to really do that much good. But, hey, I can keep getting up early this summer, and enjoy the long days to their fullest. By sitting inside and typing on my computer. But with my window open, you see.
I spent an hour and a half yesterday beefing up security on my system. It always creates a lot of problems when I do that, most notably the trouble using my browser to open web sites. It wants to block everything, but when I look at the amount of Port Scans and spyware that its blocking and a minute to minute basis, I realize that it's probably worth it. I update my Adaware with new definitions and ran a scan and it found 132 bad files. Thats not nearly as shocking as when I tell you that I ran it the day before with the old definitions and it only found 10 files that needed to go. Anyway, the moral is run adaware right now. go on, I'll wait.
I applied for a creative writing class for next semester. I've taken a few already, but I honestly think that I've learned a lot more about creative writing in the last couple of weeks when my professor spent a couple of hours one on one with me going over a story as I revised. Its amazing how people with PhD's can be so insightful.
I wrote a short story yesterday with drug addict clowns, nuns, deformed priests, and absolutely no ninjas. It still needs a lot of work, but I'm kind of proud of it, I like the characters, I like the flow. I'm still not where I'd like to be with my writing, I have a long way to go I think, but I'm getting a little closer. A lot of things still feel kind of forced and a lot of things are probably too subtle for my original meaning to come across. I don't know, I'll get there.
I've been forcing myself to wake up earlier lately, which I have been finding charmingly delightful. I have so much time to get things done before anything has to get done. I'm not rushing around so much. Man, I wish I was doing this all semester, that would have been nice. Instead, like with everything in my life, I start when its all but too late to really do that much good. But, hey, I can keep getting up early this summer, and enjoy the long days to their fullest. By sitting inside and typing on my computer. But with my window open, you see.
I spent an hour and a half yesterday beefing up security on my system. It always creates a lot of problems when I do that, most notably the trouble using my browser to open web sites. It wants to block everything, but when I look at the amount of Port Scans and spyware that its blocking and a minute to minute basis, I realize that it's probably worth it. I update my Adaware with new definitions and ran a scan and it found 132 bad files. Thats not nearly as shocking as when I tell you that I ran it the day before with the old definitions and it only found 10 files that needed to go. Anyway, the moral is run adaware right now. go on, I'll wait.
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
This may be an attempt to trick you
So this is my new blog, I'll probably be using it for a while, my livejournal account will still be there but I don't think I'll be using it to post anything new.
I want to have a zombie movie watching night sometime after finals. I'm in a heavy zombie-phase right now, actually, I've been in one for the last three or so years, but I mean, I've been renting a lot of zombie movies. I was in the video store renting Jarhead (which I havn't watched yet) and I mentioned to the girl working behind the counter, who is generally there when I go in and therefore sees what I rent most of the time, that I almost rented another zombie movie. She started laughing and then put her hand parallel to the floor and made a fanning move with it and giggles "calm down on the zombie movies!" and I laughed, and then walked out determined to rent dozens of zombie movies. Not to spite her, but really because her comment made me realize that I've really only scratched the surface of zombie movies, I have a long way to go. "Calm down?" I said to myself as I walked back to my car looking at disgust at Jarhead (a movie I've been meaning to watch for a while) "I need to calm up!" and then I realized that I was glad I hadn't said that out loud, because it sounded ridiculous.
I'm not entirely sure what it is about zombie movies that draws me in. I've thought a lot about it, too. I think it has something to do with the survival thing, a small group surviving against all odds, living were all others have died. I also have always enjoyed stories of apocolypse. I'm not sure what appeals to me about that, although I think I like the idea of all the world around us, all the buildings, the cars, telephone poles and commuter trains, suddenly becoming nothing more than obsolete artifacts. A ruined civilization, with archeaologists a thousand years from now digging up cell phones and computers and wondering what they were used for.
How strange is that, to think, that this new technology that we all use in our everyday life, will someday become something like stone weapons to future generations? They will see how we used them, they will understand it was the best we could do, but they would still be in awe of how we could even survive with such primitive technology. They'll look back on whatever science books survived and say "these ideas about the world are insanly simple minded! and why did they seem to worship this Einstien guy? he wasn't so smart..." I don't know, maybe thats why I like zombie movies and other movies about apocolypse, because it turns our world instantly into what it will eventually become, an old civilization, a mryiad of artifacts that are useless in the current world for anything less than study.
Although it does take a lot to think about to even conceive of the idea of what we see around us won't still be here, at least in some form, in a thousand, two thousand, however many thousand, years. But then I think about Rome and Greece and how the people living then probably had no idea that civilization would advance as far as it has since then and that that beautiful monuments they constructed and lived by (and in) have now become nothing more than old rocks of interest primarily to historians and tourists. I mean, what will future generations think of our giant buildings, our "Freedom Tower" or whatever the hell they are calling that monstrosity being constructed in New York on the Twin Tower site? What will they think of Reno, of Vegas? What will they make of the neon signs that say "Loose Slots?" Will they understand its just all about gambling? Or will they think it has some sort of religious conotation? "Is it a social commentary?" they will ask, and they will study it and maybe decide that we worshiped the gods of money by donating money to giant temples made of glass and neon by inserting whatever loose money we had into machines that told our fortunes (they will try to transcribe what the fortune of "7, Cherry, BAR" was for many years, until deciding that it was warning one of eating cherries for one week (Barring them from it for 7 days...)). Of course, perhaps with the advance of written history what it will be easier to transfer our knowledge to the future.
But then I think, what of our written history? Because it seems like, at the rate we are going, nothing is really going to be printed anymore, it will just be all online. And then I think, well, severs crash, people hack systems, it's likely that there will be, at some time in the future, an attack on the US (I'm not saying soon, I mean, like, sometime...in the future) and maybe they will use weapons against the main hubs of the internet to knock out our communications array and it will destroy millions, billions, trillians, of words that were written and now kept only on the internet. And if that happened it would be like burning the library of Alexandrea, some information would survive, but just bits and pieces, and if that same war wipes us all out then we won't have much of a legacy to leave to the future. And if you think about it, you take out the internet somehow, I have no idea how one could do it, but an increadably well thought out and executed plan by some terrorists or country might be able to wipe it out, I've heard once that there was a place in California somewhere were there were four huge servers and most of the internet was tied in with them, or you can even think of it like the Death Star, I mean, someone gets some proton torpedos shot down just the right exhast port of the internet and the whole thing comes apart. And it's called the internet, implying that everything is tied in with everything else through some long complicated plot. Find a weakness in it and exploit it and it would all fall down like a house of cards. Okay, enough about that though, the point was, if someone managed to do something like that then it would screw our whole society for a while, financial institutions and most big businesses would be seriously crippled, not so bad that they probably wouldn't be able to recover, but most companies are coming to rely almost solely on the internet for keeping track of their extensive business, and if that went away, they would be down and out for a bit and while they tried to rebuild there would more than likely be people trying to benefit off of it, either by the simple act of looting or by more complex structures of trying to change all the information while they can get access to it without anyone being the wiser because now its offline and they found out how to get to it somehow and then they are stealing all sorts of stuff and everyone gets greedy, then everyone realizes that they are tearing themseleves apart and they think "i've got to protect myself and my family!" and so everyone gets weapons and starts fighting their neighbors while the enemy who started all this chaos is marching on Broklyn and we are all sitting there going "what the fuck happened?" and then everyone explodes.
I want to have a zombie movie watching night sometime after finals. I'm in a heavy zombie-phase right now, actually, I've been in one for the last three or so years, but I mean, I've been renting a lot of zombie movies. I was in the video store renting Jarhead (which I havn't watched yet) and I mentioned to the girl working behind the counter, who is generally there when I go in and therefore sees what I rent most of the time, that I almost rented another zombie movie. She started laughing and then put her hand parallel to the floor and made a fanning move with it and giggles "calm down on the zombie movies!" and I laughed, and then walked out determined to rent dozens of zombie movies. Not to spite her, but really because her comment made me realize that I've really only scratched the surface of zombie movies, I have a long way to go. "Calm down?" I said to myself as I walked back to my car looking at disgust at Jarhead (a movie I've been meaning to watch for a while) "I need to calm up!" and then I realized that I was glad I hadn't said that out loud, because it sounded ridiculous.
I'm not entirely sure what it is about zombie movies that draws me in. I've thought a lot about it, too. I think it has something to do with the survival thing, a small group surviving against all odds, living were all others have died. I also have always enjoyed stories of apocolypse. I'm not sure what appeals to me about that, although I think I like the idea of all the world around us, all the buildings, the cars, telephone poles and commuter trains, suddenly becoming nothing more than obsolete artifacts. A ruined civilization, with archeaologists a thousand years from now digging up cell phones and computers and wondering what they were used for.
How strange is that, to think, that this new technology that we all use in our everyday life, will someday become something like stone weapons to future generations? They will see how we used them, they will understand it was the best we could do, but they would still be in awe of how we could even survive with such primitive technology. They'll look back on whatever science books survived and say "these ideas about the world are insanly simple minded! and why did they seem to worship this Einstien guy? he wasn't so smart..." I don't know, maybe thats why I like zombie movies and other movies about apocolypse, because it turns our world instantly into what it will eventually become, an old civilization, a mryiad of artifacts that are useless in the current world for anything less than study.
Although it does take a lot to think about to even conceive of the idea of what we see around us won't still be here, at least in some form, in a thousand, two thousand, however many thousand, years. But then I think about Rome and Greece and how the people living then probably had no idea that civilization would advance as far as it has since then and that that beautiful monuments they constructed and lived by (and in) have now become nothing more than old rocks of interest primarily to historians and tourists. I mean, what will future generations think of our giant buildings, our "Freedom Tower" or whatever the hell they are calling that monstrosity being constructed in New York on the Twin Tower site? What will they think of Reno, of Vegas? What will they make of the neon signs that say "Loose Slots?" Will they understand its just all about gambling? Or will they think it has some sort of religious conotation? "Is it a social commentary?" they will ask, and they will study it and maybe decide that we worshiped the gods of money by donating money to giant temples made of glass and neon by inserting whatever loose money we had into machines that told our fortunes (they will try to transcribe what the fortune of "7, Cherry, BAR" was for many years, until deciding that it was warning one of eating cherries for one week (Barring them from it for 7 days...)). Of course, perhaps with the advance of written history what it will be easier to transfer our knowledge to the future.
But then I think, what of our written history? Because it seems like, at the rate we are going, nothing is really going to be printed anymore, it will just be all online. And then I think, well, severs crash, people hack systems, it's likely that there will be, at some time in the future, an attack on the US (I'm not saying soon, I mean, like, sometime...in the future) and maybe they will use weapons against the main hubs of the internet to knock out our communications array and it will destroy millions, billions, trillians, of words that were written and now kept only on the internet. And if that happened it would be like burning the library of Alexandrea, some information would survive, but just bits and pieces, and if that same war wipes us all out then we won't have much of a legacy to leave to the future. And if you think about it, you take out the internet somehow, I have no idea how one could do it, but an increadably well thought out and executed plan by some terrorists or country might be able to wipe it out, I've heard once that there was a place in California somewhere were there were four huge servers and most of the internet was tied in with them, or you can even think of it like the Death Star, I mean, someone gets some proton torpedos shot down just the right exhast port of the internet and the whole thing comes apart. And it's called the internet, implying that everything is tied in with everything else through some long complicated plot. Find a weakness in it and exploit it and it would all fall down like a house of cards. Okay, enough about that though, the point was, if someone managed to do something like that then it would screw our whole society for a while, financial institutions and most big businesses would be seriously crippled, not so bad that they probably wouldn't be able to recover, but most companies are coming to rely almost solely on the internet for keeping track of their extensive business, and if that went away, they would be down and out for a bit and while they tried to rebuild there would more than likely be people trying to benefit off of it, either by the simple act of looting or by more complex structures of trying to change all the information while they can get access to it without anyone being the wiser because now its offline and they found out how to get to it somehow and then they are stealing all sorts of stuff and everyone gets greedy, then everyone realizes that they are tearing themseleves apart and they think "i've got to protect myself and my family!" and so everyone gets weapons and starts fighting their neighbors while the enemy who started all this chaos is marching on Broklyn and we are all sitting there going "what the fuck happened?" and then everyone explodes.
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